dust

in the middle of the clutter/excess stuff battle, there's also the cleanliness battle. truth is, i'm a pig. if you came to visit i'd clean and it would look tidy, but if you took a closer look you might want to leave

i talk about this a lot in therapy, it rarely changes.

today the tv people came to install a DVR, so i had to pull out furniture and see what was behind things. grossness, that was behind things. dist so thick and dirty i needed wet rags to clean it away. further proof that this needs to change. i need to find a way to stop living like this.